Some quick info and blog stuff
I’ve been feeling very bloggy as of late. I just want to write, and i feel that i have enough to say to make this a somewhat sizable post.
First things first, i’d like all my transgendered followers to link me to their wordpress, twitter or anywhere else, because i would like to follow you. You know, to get to know some more sisters and brothers in arms out there. Second of all. And if you’re not transgender, you could link me your blog anywhere, and i’ll check it out. I’d like to get more active and stuff, so i’ll probably end up following everyone.
Observing bigotry. Observer not being observant. Blind observer.
Anyhow. What’s up with the Observer? Apparently, according to a blog post i read this morning, and according to a few people i tweeted, the observer (Which is a supposed left-wing high ranking magazine in England) had commissioned a feminist bigot who felt it necessary to spew her bigotry all over the place, in the form of an article. It apparently had some really vile and nasty stuff in there about how transsexuals are just.. How did she phrase it, “men in bad wigs” or something to that effect. That’s the only thing i remember hearing though. Though, if the people who got riled up about this feminist is anything to go by, that was small stuff.
Like i said, i didn’t really read it, and i only have other people’s blog posts to go by, so this won’t end up a very informative post about that thing, but i got a bit emotional about a supposed left-wing paper writing bigoted stuff, and felt that i should share my opinion anyway. Good thing is that they apologized for commissioning such a bigot. And the bad thing is that a lot of leftists agreed with the bigotry.
I guess i could sit here all day and tell the bigots that their bigotry is no better than that of a Nazi . In fact, i’d argue that they’re more ignorant than Nazis. I mean, it should be more expected of people in this day and age to be more well versed in history, and especially the history of human bigotry. Didn’t have as much information about that stuff back in the days of the Nazis.
But anyway. They’re just gonna say that “it’s not the same”, just like Nazis do, like racists do, like homophobes do, etc. The thing about the bigoted is that logic just doesn’t work on them.
So… TL;DR: BLUBLU BLA BLA BLA! DUR!1one
Small life updates
On an unrelated note. I’ve been playing a lot of borderlands 2 with my brother as of late. We’re about done with “true vaulthunter” mode now. I don’t know, it’s just been so much fun. I can’t get enough of it. On a side, i have been completing all the normal difficulty missions (To get an achievement, and to learn as much as i can about borderlands lore). Not much else to say about it. I might write a review later, and talk a little about a certain plot hole. It’ll be my final borderlands 2 post. Out of.. What.. 7 or so now?
This is what initially sparked me to make a new post. I’m down to my last pill. The last sleeping/anti-depressant pill. After this, my body’s gonna have to get used to getting sleepy of its own. Which i think it’s more than ready to do. So it’ll be exciting for sure. I’ve been taking them for about 90 days now, so i have to say that it’ll be nice to try without now.
Speaking of depression. Still no word from the Swedish medical academy, and no word from the people here either. So no updates on my transgender issues so far. One thing though.. I still don’t think my aunt knows about my issues, so when she’s coming along to a visits about my anxiety with the doctor here, i guess she’s just gonna have to know. She’s been a lot of help to me, so i hope it won’t bother her too much. Kinda need her help, so… Yea..
That’s about it for now, everyone. I hope to hear from some people, and maybe get to follow some too.
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Change.. Eating healthy. Lots of weird views? And how hot can it get?
Days go by, and nothing ever seems to change. That’s a lie though. Things do change. It’s just that, it’s going very slow. I just want to take the step where i get my own place. That big step, which is going to make everything so much better. I won’t have to feel that i’m walking in place, doing nothing.
But that is for another today. Today, i haven’t done much, other than eating very unhealthily. But hey, there are days when you do that too. I just know that while i’m living here, there’s no way i’m going to get back into shape. There are just too many temptations and what not.
So, with those two stories, i’m gonna end it off right here. Oh, and i got around 73 views yesterday on my blog, for some weird reason. All from the US, going to different entries. Seems like a bot to me, since i didn’t really get many likes and w hat not. But then again, what do i know. It seems weird that it would be a bot, but it does make sense.
Nothing planned. My brother and i are going to play borderlands 2 next week, and have a LAN. I hope my brain is ready for that.
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Late post. I might be a lesbian. Borderlands 2 soon!!!
Actually.. More like, yesterday. I’m writing this blog in the morning after, because i was so damn tired yesterday. Spent most of the day just walking. It was great though.
So.. I think i might be a straight up lesbian. I had an epiphany yesterday. I probably don’t like penises, sadly. Either way, i think i’ll be able to not focus so much on sex anymore.
I wonder.. Will i have an epiphany about my gender at some point too? I feel that i’ve already had that though. I’ve come to the conclusion that i’m a woman. But you know. I’m not an expert on the subject, and i feel that i need to keep an open mind about it either way.
Borderlands 2 was released to the greedy yanks yesterday on console or whatever. Apparently, borderlands 2 has a huge minecraft easter egg. So that’s pretty funny. But that’s about all i know! I don’t want to spoil any more than that.
Me and my brother’s gonna play it this friday when it’s released on steam! Oooh, i can not wait! Apparently, the characters from the first game’s gonna be in it too? I don’t know, i just like lilith more than i like maya, when it comes to the sirens. Which was my favorite class in the last game.
Either way! It’ll be awesome! I think i need to complete the second playthrough of the first game today or tomorrow though.
I still haven’t gone down to the employment offices. But it’ll come, i guess. Since i have to to be able to get my own place.
Borderlands 2 will come on this Friday on steam!!
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Trying a hairstyle, and talking about trans stuff. iPod touches with new colors! Skyrim fan video.
I was going to shave off the beard properly, but couldn’t find the tools i needed to do so.. So i ended up with a half-assed photo shoot (for lack of a better word) of myself. My hair has gotten much longer now. It still lacks a lot of hair where hair should be though. I shudder to think how it’ll look like in a decade unless i do something about it. Luckily, you can do hair transplantation. I haven’t read too much about it yet, but it seems to be working, and it’s something i intend to do once i get the money to do so. Cause i want hair that i can do more with.
Anyway. Here are some of the pics. I kind of hate having to show that aweful beard, but hey.. I kind of liked the way my hair looked on some of them, and i wanted to mostly show how long it is now.
Ugh.. Can’t wait til i get to start taking hormones.
It’s been better today than it was yesterday. Had some fun with my brother, and just relaxed for a bit. Played some more borderlands.
I saw this little piece earlier, and i found myself agreeing with its message for the most part. Maybe someone else can get something good from it too.
Saw a really cute scarf in a shop i went to today. I was thinking of going back there tomorrow with my own money so that i can buy it. Cause i want it! Black and dark grayish, almost tartanesque/Lineish. I’ll take a pic tomorrow.
Oh, and one more thing.. Apple announced a bunch of apple product updates today. iPhone 5, new colors on iPod touches, and much more. The red iPod touch looked a little pinkish, so that’s one i’d love to have. Wish i could have a truly pink one (Like one girl i saw had. Most have been custom colored).
I have got nothing planned.
For us Skyrim fans:
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Detailing the first school day, after more than 3 years of unemployment and stress disorder. A little more borderlands.
It was the first day of school today, and i am just beat! Had to wake up in some ungodly hour (6am or so), and ended up only getting two hours of sleep.
But yea. The trip there was fairly long too. Keep in mind that i started at 10am, and got to the town the school’s in, at about 8:40am. To sum up the first day, i’d say it was hellish, or nightmarish. It’s obvious that i’m not used to interacting with many people or doing anything, really. It was kind of an eye-opener, how much i need this, to get away from this old way of being. Anxiety disorder.. Horrible.
But yea.. Things are going forward though! I love getting to a new town and all that. It’s a shame i can’t really be myself in my current state though! I feel so bogged down by it. Had to run to the toilet more than ten times before the day was done. To cry, two of the times.. It’s very hard for me, obviously. I’m just not used to it.
I was very relieved when the day was over though. Went to look around more in town, and ate some pizza. Then i took the train home. Tomorrow will be better, i feel.
When i got home, i told my family about my day, and we just ended up talking for a while. My brother and i talked a little about Borderlands too. We ended up playing multiplayer in the Jacob’s cove DLC for a few hours. Which is a good ending to the dawning of a new me.
All in all, i feel that unless i actually confront with my fears, and that which makes me feel very uncomfortable and all that, nothing’s gonna get better. So it’ll be a tough couple of weeks.
Last day of school for the week. Turns out that it’s mostly homework for about 6 weeks or so. So it’s a soft start, thankfully.