Nothing but venting.. I’m sorry.
I’ve been doing a lot of venting and letting my emotions take over these past few years. I realize it’s a predominantly futile exercise, and for that, I’m sorry.
I know it’s ok to talk about your feelings with people you know and love, but it really shouldn’t leek out to the rest of the world.
I want to be the best person I can be, to everyone I meet. And not letting my emotions take over is the first step. Don’t get me wrong, it isn’t as big an issue as you might think. I’ve never hurt anyone physically before, and I don’t go into heated screaming with people either. It’s just, sometimes, I let my anger leek out to the world by talking to myself angrily and showing a lot of signs of anger and frustration. And I don’t think it’s what I want to be.
I think it’s important to remember that life is short, and that you should make the best of it. To act like a douche, hold grudges, be angry; it’s all a waste of time at the end of the day, because you end up hurting yourself more than anyone by being all of those bad things.
I’m kind of drunk, so excuse me if this doesn’t make any sense. All I’m trying to say is that I want to better myself, and all this behavior I’ve felt has been rising in my life, is just unnecessary and stupid.