Day 128: First day of school
In today’s post:
Detailing the first school day, after more than 3 years of unemployment and stress disorder. A little more borderlands.
It was the first day of school today, and i am just beat! Had to wake up in some ungodly hour (6am or so), and ended up only getting two hours of sleep.
But yea. The trip there was fairly long too. Keep in mind that i started at 10am, and got to the town the school’s in, at about 8:40am. To sum up the first day, i’d say it was hellish, or nightmarish. It’s obvious that i’m not used to interacting with many people or doing anything, really. It was kind of an eye-opener, how much i need this, to get away from this old way of being. Anxiety disorder.. Horrible.
But yea.. Things are going forward though! I love getting to a new town and all that. It’s a shame i can’t really be myself in my current state though! I feel so bogged down by it. Had to run to the toilet more than ten times before the day was done. To cry, two of the times.. It’s very hard for me, obviously. I’m just not used to it.
I was very relieved when the day was over though. Went to look around more in town, and ate some pizza. Then i took the train home. Tomorrow will be better, i feel.
When i got home, i told my family about my day, and we just ended up talking for a while. My brother and i talked a little about Borderlands too. We ended up playing multiplayer in the Jacob’s cove DLC for a few hours. Which is a good ending to the dawning of a new me.
All in all, i feel that unless i actually confront with my fears, and that which makes me feel very uncomfortable and all that, nothing’s gonna get better. So it’ll be a tough couple of weeks.
Last day of school for the week. Turns out that it’s mostly homework for about 6 weeks or so. So it’s a soft start, thankfully.