Day 72: The more often you find a little light, the more light there will be
I’ve been depressed for most of the day. Feeling ok now, i suppose. Had a bad night. Woke up around 2 hours after falling asleep, having aches in my stomach. Must have been something i ate earlier, because it’s better now.
And it really is an evil circle. Stressed because i’m stressed, basically. It’s not a very good feeling. Very happy that i have mom to talk to about it though.
Got an email from the place where i ordered the 3ds today. They said that they were sending it out now! Should get it sometimes this week.. You know.. I can’t thank Darrin enough for his kindness. Especially considering how well he timed it. I feel that i could use it now. Not just for a distraction, but also the kindness. Words can not express how thankful i am.
Mom suggested that i should take some “Thealen” or whatever it’s called, for a few days in a row. It’s basically a medicine that makes you very very tired. She thinks it could help to get back into the swing of things. Because right now, i feel that i’m controlled by my stress. My whole body is tense. But it sounds like a good plan. Maybe i should give myself some massages too. Where i can, at least. Then maybe get some massages too. We’ll see. At least it’s a plan.
Hopefully, i’ll get some rest. But we’ll see. Not going to say anything. Sun’s finally down. Huh.. It’s actually noticeably earlier now. When it was the worst, it would go down around 10pm or even later. Heck, some parts of Sweden, when it’s the worst, gets something called the “midnight sun”. Basically a whole day of sun, and then some. Which is something to see if you’re visiting the north (Or south, in Australia), i suppose. But i’m so used to it that i find it more annoying than anything.
Now, i will take a little walk, and then head home, to take that medicine.
Read by Tom Waits, remixed by StarshipAmazing. Thought it was appropriate.