Day 59: The struggle continues

Been feeling very stressed today. Not to the point where i can’t be sociable, although that was quite the challenge too, but still..
You know.. I’ve had enough of this. I will consult my mom tomorrow about seeing a specialist, because i just don’t want to deal with it anymore. I’ve tried and tried myself, and now i just can’t deal with it anymore.

I actually went and made a post on reddit about it: Figured i would seek out a forum and hear people’s ideas. I might even hit some other forum later. We’ll see. Oh, and i like that my one default upvote on that post is now gone due to someone down-voting it. Classic reddit, right there. But you know, i still feel that i have more in common with the reddit community than a lot of other people on the web.
But yea! I’m sick and tired of it. Fell asleep around 4am tonight, and now i’m just stressed out at it. Some things i guess i could do, is to take some time to just sit still. Focus on nothing, basically. Although i’ve tried that before, with little success.
Having all this said though, i don’t think it’ll ever get as bad as it was about 60 days ago. I mean, i just feel too good, having started to deal with everything now, that i can’t hit that low anymore. I just can’t.
It could be a response my body has from me ditching junk food. Abstinence and all that. I think one thing that’s good when you’re stressed, is to think about it logically. I have no real reason what so ever to feel stressed, and at the same time, i have good reasons to. It’s weird to explain it, and maybe it’s just the anxiety talking, but there you go.

Aside from this! It’s not around 12 when i’m writing this! Yay! Earlier bedtimes is always good. I am aiming to fall asleep much later though! We’ll see.
Started listening to Penn Radio today. Already up to the 3rd episode. Fantastic show, to say the least. Lots to listen to. Then my brother got his asus tablet today. Damn, that thing is just great! Was fun playing around with it. I totally want one now. haha!
The weather outside has been very windy. Felt very fall-like. So, fantastic, in other words!

Tomorrow.. I i’ll continue the struggle and the training, and i will consult my mom about an expert. And.. That’s about it! Don’t really have much else to say.

A great song that inspired the title of this post:


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