Day 22: Future
Feeling a bit worse today actually. Some more stress creeping in and all that stuff. But i’m not really too sad or anything, even though i was feeling sad earlier. Got to vent to my mom about stuff, and it felt better. Tomorrow will be a fun day, with lots to do. If i manage, i will try to clean my bike so i can get it into the workshop where they fix bikes. Then i have an appointment in the afternoon about a potential internship at some place. I think it was assistant work or something. Then i will probably pick up an inflatable mattress (Something to sleep on) from my sister. Gonna use it to sleep on when i sleep over at my brother’s place. So yea. Quite a bit to do. A little giddy about it.
Other than that.. It’s been a pretty lazy sunday. My back’s been feeling pretty sucky.. Oh yea! That’s right. Gonna call the doctor to get an appointment about my back, my swollen lower leg (It’s been swollen for a better part of two years now). I think it’s all connected to the fact that my knees suck. I’ve had my knees be disjointed a few times, and i think the left leg has some nerves sitting strangely, and the knee sitting strangely in general. So it needs checking up on, and needs to be fixed. Because it’s not getting better, sadly. So let’s hope it is what i think it is. A knee related problem.
My mom and dad went through some of my recently deceased (A little more than a year now) grandma’s stuff today. Lots of great memories to be had, it seemed. I really do miss her..
But yea.. Never played games with my brother after all. I think he got so drunk yesterday, that he now is incapable of doing much of anything. Hehe.
It was a lot of fun though. Totally worth it.
Uneventful day, lots to do tomorrow, feeling a little more stressed today. But overall, it feels kind of great. Things are happening. I’m getting my life back on track. Maybe as soon as other things has settled, i could get my hormone therapy started too. I have high hopes for the future, and i’m actually feeling hopeful about things for once.
Here’s to a better future and a better life!
Got me thinking of this song: Our children’s future: http://hudsonmusic.bandcamp.com/track/our-childrens-future